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Kids Will Smoke Reefer
03:53
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So good to see your face
Come grab all your shit, don't forget a light
We're headed to my place
I've got extra bud if you need a fix
We smoke until morning
4:20 AM's when we call it quits
Cuz kids will smoke reefer
Sun outside shining bright
I found life in the 90s
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Tall Willows
06:14
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I remember how we'd go down to the creek
Throw rocks in the pond to watch them splash
Sit on the pipe and dangle our legs
Hear the crickets chirp when it's time to go home
Now it's all overgrown and dried up
Tall willow trees in place of the bed
No kid's down here the way we were
But there's a beer bottle on the side of the road
I like dancing in the rain at night
I don't care if I'm alone or not
I want only to see your face in the water
I will stare at the mud until it greets me
I want only to see your face when it shows
I will stare at the mud until your eyes meet mine
I hear your voice in the birds, you sing like no other
I feel your breath in the cantor of the pine trees
I see your light shining down through glimpses on the water
I will stare at its shimmer as it flow from my eyes
I want only to see myself as someone's brother
As I sink on my knees, please can you hold me
I want only to live the way you would have wanted
I will hold onto love until your eyes meet mine
Washed up and headached I'll listen to the toads
Stare at dry lilies under the tall willows
Rest my head upon these landscaping stones
Take me home, take me home
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I lay down, nothing matters to me
I only came home to sleep
Memories rise from these speckled lights
I wonder what I'll see when dreaming tonight
The empty space here's unnerving to me
I find the silence rather uncanny
I don't live here anymore, but you do
Head hung, cloudy October nights
The years come, each one bearing less of a fight
And while I struggle I have no sense of blame
My heart's older, I wish that I had felt all your pain
I want to see you in a different light, but my
Head gets foggy when it's gray outside
You don't live here anymore, but I do
Cloudy days 'round late October
Feel the weight of the world pressing down on my shoulders
Never foreign to paling skin, though I know
I'd feel better not staying in
We hailed sugar back when we were young, but my
Head gets foggy when I think of us
I stay here just to live for you, yes I do
I lay down, one thing matters to me
I only came home to sleep
A blank ceiling stripped of speckled dust
With dead stares, gaze directly above
I want to see you looking down upon me
I want to know if you'll be waiting for me
You stay here, just to live through me, yes you do
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Run Away
04:23
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How my bitterness brings me down
I wish I was like you, forever young
How my footsteps fill the room, cold and black the sound
How I yearn for you, let me come and find you
We're all trapped inside
The hardest fall is head high
So come lay by my side
Nothing's real for tonight, I want to
Live without a mind, and to
Live another life
I didn't want to run away
I wish that you had felt the same
I wish our minds weren't full of things to fear
I hear you coming back, so I'll
Stay another year
In my mind you are still here
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Love is a Parasite
05:59
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Empathy's love, and love is a parasite
I've been dreaming of speaking to you
My heart ever numb, my comfort I will resign
I've been seeing my shadow as you
Words beneath my tongue speak of violence and disregard
Yet the ones that are chosen ring joyous and blue
Repress them for long, they return in a paradox
Dancing 'til brave enough to challenge them as you
Somber is the word that's best left reserved
Thinking of you when my spirits are low
Hungrier with taste, how the parasite grows
Fastened is the grip that loneliness holds
Your character projects onto all that I know
My memory devolves into an unresolved cold
Formative moments now are supplanted by regrets
As weight of constant yearning makes its home in my chest
I hope you'd known that you'd be missed
My heart sinks to you through the pit in my throat
My love for you is heavy as stone
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Spirit of the Lake
07:26
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Come now and dance with me
You perilous void, you know I don't mind
Your every heartbeat's now synced with me
I'll be the leader, you'll be my guide
When you're there, I know that you've been there
Idling, waiting for me to arrive
These days you're wandering free
And when you come home I'll let you inside
When I sing, do you speak through me?
And are your thoughts now engaged with my voice
Do you follow me by your own will?
Are you an angel or just a lost ghost?
And I'm hearing your voice, it's calling back at me
And I'm feeling your presence looming over me
Every subsequent second is eternity
I'll surrender my life to what's in front of me
Teeter on the edge of a meaningless brief reality
Nothing else I wanna do but disassociate
I'm a martyr to psychosis in an age of hedonists
I'm still tryna find the difference 'tween a prophet and a schizophrenic
And as now approaches the Spirit of the Lake
An atmosphere of trepidation takes hold in its wake
It stares dead into the eyes of those who can see its halo
Lifts an arm to its head, and uncovers its veil
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Should I wait for tomorrow?
You're inside of me
I sit in disbelief and sigh
Run away, I won't follow
Some things I shouldn't see
Because in my head you're still alive
Should I wait for tomorrow?
Did you hesitate?
Is that really you I see outside?
Run away, I won't follow
Some things weren't meant to be
I guess we'll meet in another life
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Antistalgia
07:49
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Step back dreamer
You're in antistalgia
I'm done trying one life is enough
But I want to change
For once be okay
Oh god help
I don't care
Step back dreamer
You're in antistalgia
Perilous the waves that guide me
Stretching far across a great black sea
Ever-glowing their crests break softly
Calling me to the depths beneath
Step back
I'm living my dreams with watered eyes
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90s Kids Remember
06:53
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Generation of depression
I'm a medicated miracle
I'm raised on television
Cyberspace is my first world
Substance maintained stasis
High as hell, if you can't tell
I'm drifting in between the
Waves of augmentation and fictive worlds
Like how we used to sit inside
Stare transfixed onto an image 'til there's blisters in our eyes
I can still remember desperation in your eyes
Breaking clear of your fixation,
Viewing outside as a lie
Holes in my mind
Tripping through time
Disembodied by design
Recall when I was five
Party like it's 1999
There's no rose-tinted future recorded on VHS
Distorted, stored in dusty cabinets
Played on analog TV sets
I don't wanna grow old
See time reimposed in relative spectra
With social ties constructed in an imagined vacuum
With characters that are based upon my own reflection
And every second destined to only then be retracted
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Keep light, but recall what you could have said
With time passed, you would want me to be happy
But I'll always miss you
You know that I do
Hold tight, and with eyes on the life ahead
With time passed, you would want me to be strong
I hope you'd known I loved you
I know that I do
I remember you
Every birth is trauma, and I endear the pain that keeps me alive
Wake up two decades late with a permanent stitch in my mind
Do you ever stop sit and question you were born at the wrong time?
Woke up two decades late, missed out on all of my life
90s kids remember
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